Friday, June 20, 2008

Rehab for defective bodies.

29w 1d

So I guess people like to move fast with this GD (gestational diabetes) shit! I have already spoke with the nurse at the specialist's office and as long as the insurance goes through I should receive my testing kit pretty fast, then a nurse will come to my house and I will have a 2 hour lesson on how to check my blood sugar, what to eat, etc. I will then have to call in my daily results, sounds like a blast right? The program lasts 21 days (just like rehab! I feel like such a celeb) and if I have everything under control at the end of the 21 days, I am discharged from the program. I wonder if they will sing to me when I am done like in the movie? Maybe they will ask me to be in the next diabetes commercial with BB King. See? I am trying to be funny. Trying to cheer myself up.

The nurse on the phone made me feel so good. After she asked me all the "Do you have high blood pressure? Heart issues? Placenta problems? Obesity? etc etc..." she said, "This really came out of left field for you, huh? You are the right weight, super healthy, no issues."
Can I carry her in my pocket from now on? For all the times I am sure people will think that I made this happen, that I did something wrong, that I must be overweight?

I also went home for lunch and cried in Paul's arms for a while. I do have the best husband ever. When I shared my frustration that this is not fair, I eat healthy, I take good care of myself, I know plenty of pregnant women who take horrible care of themselves and never get GD, people are going to think I am a horrible you know what he said? "Who gives a shit what other people think?" And he's right. This is not my fault. This is not my fault.


Laura said...

That is the Tiffyloowoo I know.

This post has me in tears. I have been feeling so bad for you for being so hard on yourself.

Just keep doing everything they tell you. You and BL will be A-OK

nancy said...

Tiff...if anyone makes you feel bad..or like it's your fault..they're stupid and mean...not to mention totally ignorant! You already are a great mom...and your little guy is so blessed that you are so caring and attentive and awesome! Wierd things just happen when your sister's blood pressure is so LOW normally that she's near flatline...and with her last pregnancy she had really high pressures and had to be on bedrest for a bit...not to mention she's like the healthiest person I know...there is so much during this pregnancy journey we're on that is so out of our control...and that sucks! I'll be praying you feel encouraged, things will be just fine!

mamitasalsita said...

I totally agree with Nancy. Sweet Baby Luc is so lucky to have a mom who cares so much about him and his wellbeing. There are a lot of really bad parents in the world (a trip to any local walmart, mcdonald's or even the park would prove this), but you are already a great one.